I'm Fine.....

I'm fine... One of my favorite short quotes from one of Amy's (and mine) top 10 movies. The truth is that I am not fine really, but doing as well as can be expected at this point. Watching Elizabethtown is actually quite therapeutic, for anyone really. At Amy's funeral I asked everyone to think for a moment of one word that described Amy (of course this is very difficult task), and I used the word amazing. Amy was also a very picturesque person. She loved to take photographs of lots of different subjects and then usually put them in scrapbooks to some of her favorite poetry, some of which she originally wrote. That is how she would remember the parts of her life, and that is why the movie Elizabethtown relates so much to her life.

I also say this with the utmost respect, but Amy too would always say "I'm fine" when she really was not, so it was difficult at times to find out really what her condition was. Amy was always concerned about her other friends that had similar conditions to her's and would pray with them and offer words of encouragement or advise, especially to those who were starting to go through the multiple surgery stage and becoming frustrated. God blessed Amy with words and grace in this area beyond measure. Amy used to cry herself to sleep sometimes asking "God, why do I have to keep doing this?" and she realized that there were those who needed her. Amy planted "seeds" in others, trained them if you will, on how to be encouraging, tough, and to not let IH beat her or anyone else. IH did not beat my girl, but an untimely blood clot did, and to that you never know when that can happen, especially when you have a blood clotting disorder.

Amy wanted to meet my family in Wisconsin, and last year we had the opportunity to go. It was absolutely miserable for Amy (the drive that is), but she was such a trooper. As if that was not bad enough, she went to two of my favorite places to be back home, Granddad's Bluff, and up to my cousins along the river. She had bad headaches the whole time, and rested a lot, but it was important to her that we make that trip and that she meet my family. On the way there and on the way back, Amy even took pictures of the actual Elizabethtown interstate signs and that made her happy (except my driving, sorry again baby). 

So if you want to see how Amy coped at times and viewed life, buy (which I HIGHLY recommend) or rent Elizabethtown and have a date night, have friends over to celebrate life, and remember Amy each time. If you want an added extra bonus, Amy said (which we did) you have to watch it with closed captioning turned on. I cannot tell you why, you just have to do it and see. Also a warning here, there are a few pieces of language in here, but not too rough, and I think the F word is used once, so beware not to have the little ones around. God bless, and I miss you more and more each day baby. Some day soon the saints will see you again in all your radiant glory and no more pressure or pain.