Let us consider the way in which we spend our lives.
This world is a place of business. What an infinite bustle! I am awaked almost every night by the panting of the locomotive. It interrupts my dreams. There is no sabbath. It would be glorious to see mankind at leisure for once. - Henry David Thoreau
I must admit that exhaustion has set it and things have become sluggish. I need to take time to regather my thoughts and memories. Time spent on taking care of the necessities and loose ends was more than I cared to do.
One thought I did have though as I continued to go through all of her stuff (which really is only the beginning) is how did I get so busy in life to let her's slip through mine? Where did the days of blessing and love go? I must admit that I am ashamed that I was too busy working, and too burned out on life to enjoy the finer things that God had graciously blessed me with. I worked hard to provide finances for our family, yet Amy worked harder to provide our family a home.
Amy was always busy with home maker things, which to me is a rarity these days. She would home school the girls, sew baby pillows for those who were expecting, make clothes for her and the girls, just home maker stuff. These are the only fond memories that come from a deep pool of such, and yet I have hardly drawn from it. I am now feeling like I have been cheated by her going home too soon. I appreciated all that she has done for my life and that of our girls, and am even appreciating some of them more now, only wishing she were still here, but healthy, to enjoy them with me.
Yet, to God be the glory, for He needed her for a purpose far more than I, and I too some day will be with them both.
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